The pros and cons of being human

Originally published at Flutter - Dark and Divine

We are all set upon this earth with our own set challenges. Some of us have it more difficult than others, some are blessed, some are damned. Some are equal tinctures of both.

Some persevere and blossom, others flicker and fade. To which end, is not predetermined, rather guided by the decisions we make. Every one thing effects every one other. From the minute to the grand, our daily pro and con list steers us in one direction or another. As fragrant petals in a windstorm, yet guided by a hand of our making.

Our experiences are not always ours to control, but how we react to them is. I have been mired in a sickly sweet cloud of terror for the better part of 15 years. Until recently, there was a sense of continual fleeing. A sense of having to watch over my shoulder, as I ran forward. Fear, panic, fear, panic.

The truth? Until recently I thought it was all my fault.